We celebrated a week later because we were camping during the actual holiday (and I was self fish and wanted traditional celebration).
Jon made me a great breakfast. He has perfected the omelet over the years. He wrote me a beautiful letter as always. And he picked out this dress and shoes all by himself!! What a great hubby!
I just love love love these shoes! Every time I see them I just want to wear them around!

I had some thoughts about Motherhood that I wanted to put in writing. It is hard to be a mom. Its so constant, and requires so much consistency. I see a night and day difference when I am praying daily for help to be patient, consistent, loving, playful, and not uptight ;) Sometimes, everyone gets caught up in what they have to get done, and doesn't think about the relationships that are involved. We start to all live like roommates rather than a family. I am sad to say I am guilty of that. To Jon as well as the boys. Instead of looking at my day as a to-do list, I try and think of it as, what can we do together today. Make the to-do's activities or projects that we can work on together and build our relationships through working on things together. I am trying to connect and talk to the boys more instead of rush them here and there, and being irritated about their consistent irrelevant questions. Irrelevant to me that is; they are important to my boys, so they should be important to me.
Lately, the boys have been in swimming lessons. They are the intense survival, safety type. They have had them for the last 2 weeks M-F. They are 20 min lessons. The first day the boys were nervous but still did really good. They didn't scream and cry like I thought they would. But the second lesson was the worst.
A forced smile
"I really really don't want to go in"
Doing great!
So sad
They were so scared, even though they did great the day before and even said they had a good time. They were both so clingy to me. Max was like a baby monkey hanging on me. They were both crying. I had to leave the pool bubble during that lesson so they would focus on the lesson.
Outside the bubble
It had been a long time since I felt needed like that from them. They are daddy's boys through and through. Sometimes, I guess, I'm jealous. Jon says when they are away from me, they ask about me often. But I don't see that. And of course they need me. The first thing they say in the morning is I'm hungry, I have to pee, what are we doing today or can I watch a show. But feeling needed in this way, their security, made me feel more like a mom. And reminded me that I want so much to have good friendly relationships with my kids, instead of just providing the essentials to live, carpooling and disciplining.
Its was great to see my relationship with them get stronger over the next couple weeks. When Zac and I are on the same page and communicating effectively through out the day, he wants ME to tuck him in. It makes me feel terrific! And I love when the boys just out of nowhere say, "I love you" to me!
Being a mother is truly,
THE MOST REWARDING thing to do! There is honestly
nothing I'd rather be doing with my life right now.